all the things we are scared to say…
I have woken every day this past week with this being the first statement spoken to me... and silly me kept dismissing it as oh… this is for the collective, not me, oh I am supposed to write about this, for others.
And still the line would keep repeating until I faced it for myself. For the things we are so scared to say. In regard to our love, our hearts, what we are here for, our work, what we are creating, our purpose, our place in the world. I am so tired of being scared. I am so tired of being scared to speak what is upon my heart. I have struggled in the past with personal revelations or my heart being vulnerable to love. I am so happy sharing what is needed within our world to heal that when it comes to my own heart, my own personal feelings, I hide behind the work. I hide behind what I am to do here in this life. I hide. My heart and my soul are so tired of hiding.
If I am fearless surfing, I want to be fearless in love.
If I am fearless within consciousness, I want to be fearless in asking for help.
If I am fearless in leaving my world behind, I want to be fearless moving forward.
If I am fearless with my writing, I want to be fearless with the words I speak.
What are all the things our beautiful hearts are scared to say?
Why are we so scared?
scared to say...
I love you...
You make me greater...
I am so thankful you are here...
I don’t want to be scared anymore.
We don’t have time in this lil’ life to be scared anymore.
I want those in my life to know the value they bring.
I want to be brave, courageous with my voice, so here I am, with my heart & arms open wide…
To say the things that I have been scared to say...
I am so grateful for you coming into my life...
You have changed me & for the better...
I am greater because of your greatness...
I feel I can fly higher than high when we are together...
You are a song that has captured me, that I have on repeat every single day...
There is nothing I cannot do, because you believe in me…
I truly feel, and believe in love again, because of you…
Our beating hearts hold so much back, we falter our words, we stumble, we think now is not the time to share all that is. We wait for the ‘right time’. We fear our fears being seen, we fear our love being rejected, we fear our ideas or feelings being ridiculed.
One thing that has kept floating and coming around for me this year is that no longer do I have time to wait, just say the thing, just do the thing, just be the thing.
This travels across all areas of my life.
In my last newsletter I talked about my process of contemplation, this is a conscious place of play and discovery for me. One of my other favourite processes or practices is lucid state. That half wakey half sleepy state as we rise in the morning, or as we fall asleep. This is where creation and manifestation play. And a few times this past week I have been in this dreamy state as I wake with that question - what if you were not scared to say all the things you want to say?
Other things such as - I need help, I’m not sure if I am doing the right thing, I don’t want to do this alone, how can one person change the world? When will I never have to worry about money or finances?
I know I am not alone. I know there are so many more things we are scared to ask for, scared to speak. And all I wish to do is create a safe space for myself and others to be able to share their hearts.
So here I am asking the things - I need your help. If you are reading this, I am asking for help.
If we are to dismiss fear, and open love to its greatest capacity, then each of us need to speak what we are most scared of. To release this fear that keeps us trapped. To release all of our stuck pieces from long ago story, from current situation, to step into all that we are meant to be.
I love love, and I know that the power of our love can change everything. I release that feeling of being scared of my love.
I love that each of you take time to read my work, I love that each of you come back time and time again to support the work. So, in asking for help, I ask each of you who read my words each time I send them, who have some part of themselves changed by what I write from my heart, those who I have supported over the years to support the work, book a session, become a subscriber, become a student, come to a class, donate.
There is so much we all have to offer and I want to help others see how amazing and magnificent they are. Let’s raise each other up in our own unique greatness.
I have big plans, and big dreams for all that I do and want to achieve with this work, and each of you support me all across the world. You open the email, you like the posts, you send me messages or connect.
I now need your help. My book is across the desks of America waiting for the right agent to reach me. Today I had a call with a former big wig of Hay House and sent my manuscript to them to see if it is worthy of print. I know the work I do and how I serve changes people, so in whatever small or big way you are able to support me, and what I do - please, now is the time. Share my work, send it to those who you feel need to hear, share my profile, help me build this community. If you feel you have an exchange to offer, to help me, I am open to it. If you have a contact who can support the work, I am open to receive. Each of you who read this have been a support for me. Each of you who reach out, I feel it in my heart. I love each of you for being here with me on this magical ride.
I don’t want fear to play any part in who I am anymore, and if I am brave, then things will happen, and happen quickly.
Today, I choose to never be scared again.
Today, I light the match.
Today, I ask for help.
Today, I speak of how love has changed me, and my world. I am brave because you believe in me. I am brave because you came into my life.
If we don’t ask the question, the answer is always no.
So, to show my love for you all, and to give even more reason to support the work, I will be releasing a chapter of my book ‘free…’ every few days on substack as part of the paid subscription offer. The first chapter will be released after this email is received by you. An easy way for you to support the work is to become a paid subscriber, and with this, you will have my book in return.
Free… living your life free within consciousness, available to you, now x
Leaving everything I knew behind changed me.
Living in Mexico changed me.
Travelling through America changed me.
Returning to Aus and the life I left behind changed me.
And this story will change you x
See, not so scary huh? Is the only words I hear now xx
I love each of you so, so much, and thank you for your continued support
much love, Nicole x
nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus
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