I was in session with a student and we were discussing the piece I wrote a few days ago about the longing for belonging (you can read it here)…
And what I saw was that piece was the yin side to this, the yang. What if how we defined ourselves in the physical world was different to the spiritual world?
That opened something huge for me.
Could it be that we have different versions of ourself within the physical and spiritual?
For the longing to belong feeling with my life in the physical, the moment I close my eyes and I open the world of consciousness, all of this falls away.
I belong in consciousness.
I feel at home, loved, at peace. I belong with the energy of my guides, I feel at peace with the energy of creator. I have no desire to be attached to any one deity or god, to be connected to one family of light beings or to be defined by one plane or dimension. There is no desire within me to label or lay claim to who is speaking through me, I have no need to categorise or create structure or limits within my connection to consciousness. And it began this super interesting conversation about the dichotomy of the two experiences. For in this world here, I am structured, I am wanting to create, wanting to be part of community and belong. Wanting to succeed, wanting to build legacy. I have such a strong desire to feel secure in my relationships, in my work, in my finances. Within consciousness, I am in belief and trust and the experience or how it makes me feel. I don’t have any of these desires or wants, as I am already all of that here. All is here, and available for me and to me.
In the physical world in the past I have struggled with defining who I am or what I do in regard to the spiritual side of me. Am I a teacher? A healer? A channel? A psychic? A medium? How do I define the complexities of what I do to those who are new to this? Sometimes it’s been easier to simply say I am a writer or teacher of consciousness.
Anytime within the energy of consciousness if I ask ‘who am I?’ We get taken to the point of light consciousness, the point of creation, there is silence and stillness, I may see the sun or the moon or the stars. It’s riddles or roundabout answers. So, if I cannot be defined within the spiritual world, and I choose not to define for not wanting to stop my expansion, then can I carry this energy that I have here into my physical experience?
Our way in the world is we ask what another does to categorise, to make ourselves feel comfortable by being able to compartmentalise each other by defining what our roles are in society. And if that’s how I am to define myself should I simply state I am here to change the world in my own little/big way? Or is it the more expected answer or really what they are asking is how do I make money? For truly when we ask the question - what do you do? We are all curious and it is such a taboo as to how we each create our own income. We judge or label to make ourselves either higher or lower on some sort of invisible hierarchy in regard to income. We unconsciously place each other on these points systems in regard to a scale of finances. What if instead of financial scales of worth we were to ask what is your passion? What is your unique way of being in the world? What brings you joy?
Images and snippets of conversations I have had with my students this past week have all been circling around this topic and now I feel I have the complete piece at hand.
How do you show up in the physical world? Are you confident, forthright? Shy, awkward? Curious and playful? Fearless? Are you the same energy with your spiritual connection to consciousness? Or is there a sense of the opposite? What if the imagery of the yin and yang also referred to your place within two worlds? Do these different parts of us need to remain separated?
In my spiritual practice, I am confident, fearless, not defined by limits placed by others or myself, I am logical and practical, I ask for what I am needing or wanting to see, I have clear communication and feel at home within the world of consciousness. Whereas in the physical world, these aspects of me the more they have grown within my spiritual side have slowly started filtering into my physical side. There feels like the two worlds or opposite sides of myself are becoming one.
There is something new I am seeing now, I have never felt comfortable being defined in this world. Not by my sexual preference, not by my diet, not by my location, not by my spiritual practice. I had a longing to belong yet I chose to not belong to definitions or labels of my personal choices. Talk about dichotomy.
The meaning of a dichotomy is two elements of a single person's character at odds with each other. We are all these beautiful layered and multifaceted creatures and are forever changing. Our tastes change, maybe our career, we take different paths, go abroad and visit different places and each time, we change. Our experiences change us. If there is no change, I see this where we are holding onto the past in some way. We cling to this past experience, relationship, version of ourselves. We can tend to feel safe with what’s known.
So, take a moment to reflect upon yourself now. Do you have a different side to you that is within consciousness? Are you confident in the physical and less confident in your spiritual side? Or is the opposite true for you?
What if unity consciousness or the idea of oneness, what if the meaning of this is bringing your two worlds into oneness? That each side is here to benefit and help the other? What if you could draw on the example of confidence and filter that into where you were feeling less than? What if the love you feel within the energy world could be drawn through you to be felt in the physical?
This is heaven and earth for me, for how I see it is that we are each here to experience heaven on earth and the more we seperate the two, the more we feel the separation within. They are both here - heaven & earth, heaven on earth. You are here not only to bring the experience of consciousness through to the physical, it is an exchange of energy where we bring through elements and teachings of the physical to consciousness.
If you are the vessel, the channel, this flow of energy flows both ways. We both give and receive.
When we open ourselves to new experiences, to change, to say yes to life, say yes to adventure, say yes to a stranger, magic finds us and shows us the infinite possibilities. This year for me is the year of yes. Yes, I wish to speak openly about who I am, how I see the world and my experiences of consciousness. I have had in the past such fear of being ridiculed or judged for the way I see the world, because of my past experiences with doing so. Now though, others are finding me because I choose to speak of my experiences and be both side of myself, or even perhaps my whole self.
I am saying yes to opportunities and connections whereas before I may have questioned or shied away or questioned motives or my own worthiness. You gotta risk it for the biscuit. I no longer want to hide behind others perceptions of me and allow them to become my reality. I live in a beautiful world of my own creation and I am gently creating my reality from this, as I can and should.
‘The story I have been telling myself’ a line from Brene Brown is a perfect example of this. Our mind is magnificent and powerful, it is simply the way in which we direct it. If we are directing it towards our worn or well used story, it will bloom. If we direct it towards newness, jumping off the cliff, direct our mind towards creating rather than rehashing we open up our new world. If the story I have been telling myself in the past has been defined by others fears, my own fears, then can I direct my energy elsewhere?
We become more fearless as we see that fear begets fear, just as being fearless brings us magic. We do not need to protect or fortify, as we are one within consciousness. When we flow within this love, this begets more love, and love finds us in unexpected ways.
The more I am in flow, the more my two worlds are within flow, and that energy I experience of myself within consciousness becomes my reality and shows up in my physical world. The separation ceases to be as I become whole.
I am whole. Fearless, loving, soft, fierce, all of these beautiful parts of me coming together in harmony as one. And everything that had been placed or I had placed in my way simply dissolves.
Every time I feel I am free, new layers of freedom and a deeper understanding of myself and consciousness opens. How deep can I go? ‘Infinite…’ the response, how high can I rise? ‘Infinite…’ the response. We are infinite when we are one.
If unity consciousness is what we are looking for, a feeling of wholeness or oneness, then of course, this starts within. Here begins our oneness, and this is the way I saw the two worlds coming together.
we are one x
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