In my last writing I spoke of how my defences were being dropped, I spoke of how I had this feeling of peace, this immense stillness come to me. More and more each day it continues, the internal chatter is simply no longer there. I have zero desire to look for it as I am relishing this clarity and stillness. I am flowing in out of meditative states, moment to moment and it seems like my life has taken this internal, absolute simplistic way of being. All the things I realised my mind was full of, these non-consequential thoughts - what was I making for dinner? should I write this person now? ooh better check instagram/emails/substack… do I need a snack? what did they mean when they said that? what was that show I was watching last week?
This myriad of nonsense and no pattern thoughts bouncing in and around my mind have simply, gone. It’s only after they are gone do I realise how much of my day was filled by these thoughts, and then the labyrinth of misdirected actions of distraction. I have created time by creating space. By slowing down, my processing time has sped up. Stillness is here for me in the most beautiful of ways.
More insights have happened this week than perhaps any other. More stillness, more time by myself, more time with my guides. I have had insights into my methods of teaching and their origins. I have connected with elders in living form, I have been shown in written form how I speak are ancient ways of teaching. It’s brought me to my knees several times in humble service. And the rate in which is has been happening feels like there is a sense of urgency to getting the message to me - one of belief.
Believe in the ways I am shown or have information come to me.
Believe in the messages I am given.
Believe in the methods I am taught.
I have had confirmation into my teaching methods, that how I share this with others are ancient ways of connecting and sharing information.
Often I am given the message that the way we will heal in the future is all about energy, frequency, vibration, sound, light. Less and less will disbelief in these areas exist as when we are open to the energy, we are allowing the energy to heal or move through us. When we are open to new ideas, we open ourselves to be different. If we believe, we receive. If everything I have written in the past were each a thread leading to this point, I want to bring all of these threads back together to their single point of origin, like the reverse unravelling.
When we open, or close, this is our choice to do so.
When we feel safe, we open naturally, gracefully and with love, we soften.
When we feel fear, either real or perceived, our defences rise automatically and at lightening speed as a form of protection.
When we are open, our neural pathways light up, welcoming and sparking to attention with excitement and a desire for the new.
When we are closed, our pathways shut down and we travel upon old well-worn patterning and behaviours, and are unable to discover new ways of changing our state of being.
It is a conscious choice to soften our energy, until it becomes natural to do so.
Softening our energy through feeling safe allows the opening to occur like soft rays of light filtering through pale clouds rather than the storm clouds building from defence.
Energy is everything, and as I write that, I have my heart swell and fill as this slow pulse of vibrating energy emanating from me gave me pause, a gentle reminder that it is true, energy is everything.
It’s the slow rolling sea, the little waves washing ashore, the pulse of currents or the feeling of floating - so may ways I use to describe how I see, feel or experience energy are the same in which I experience the ocean. Is there a coincidence? I don’t think so, for energy is strong within the elements. And Water, as we are, is fluid. It is the only element we can be completely submersed in, surrounded by, held by.
Fire, Earth, Air - we can experience these elements though not the same as we experience water. There is something magical of the element of water, it alchemises, changes shape and form under different conditions, it is so much a part of us, we would perish without it. I always feel safe in the ocean, I feel peace and calm. I feel the energy of consciousness and connection here. My practice involves the ocean daily. I am so grateful for my proximity and connection to the ocean.
What or how has the ocean taught me?
That we have unlimited resources within us and surrounding us - if we are open to seeing them. That we are all connected, if we are open to the energy flowing through us. If we are conscious to consciousness, we will forever keep expanding.
There is no beginning or end, it is a cosmic cycle of energy that flows through us, to us. No matter whether we see it as complex or simple, how we connect is less important that the conscious connection. Whether we are in nature, in meditation, focused on the elements, focused on our own heart. How we experience, how we feel, from the liquid golden honey light energy to the sharp blue rays, to the feelings of love or expansion, joy, satisfaction, to that settling after the rush of energy. Whether fleeting or forever, energy is everything.
The same day I had been having these insights I had the most loving of experiences. I was between clients, I slowed myself to take a breath and close my eyes. The moment I was in stillness, I had the quietest voice say to me - ‘you are beautiful’.
I burst into tears with the sheer love coming through the energy, I didn’t recognise the speaker, or the energy. Twice more it happened through my day, each time catching me off guard, each time the tears. It was not my inner voice, my intuition, my guides or creator. This was something different. The energy felt different, angelic, loving, quiet.
I sent out this message to three of my closest -
Three very different responses came back… except for one line. They all said in some way - ‘this is what you were needing to hear’. I wasn’t in any way testing my friends, I trust them. I was curious as to what energy they felt around me and who or what they thought the words spoken came from. I knew the answer would come, I trusted it would be shown to me.
Then, in our intuition meditation class that evening, I had the message to open access to the Higher Self for everyone. Through the guided meditation, I saw that it was my higher self who had spoken these words to me. Yes, it was me in angelic form. The realisation of the words spoken to me, yes, they were exactly what I was needing to hear.
She spoke more of where I am on my path, what I am here to be and do, to trust who I am, to believe in who I am. My higher self had arrived for me in the moments of my stillness, and then shown herself through the class.
When the gates of consciousness are open, we receive what we are needing to hear in the moment.
For those who are new to the concept of the Higher Self, think of this energy being you in your highest frequency, highest vibrancy, highest vibration. You in angelic form. You could see it as your future self, coming through to guide you, remind you, support you. Imagine your future self coming to you to show you the path forward, to remind you of how far you have come, that they share with you how they have shown up in the past.
The Higher Self emergence came through after this encounter.
The message of that this is the time for us all to see that we have such wisdom within us, and surrounding us. We can choose to connect to the outside world of nature, our surroundings, of the elements, we can choose to also connect to that well of wisdom within. For they are all one and the same - the great weave of higher consciousness.
What you see around you and how you see the world at large is that pure reflection of what is going on for you in your internal world. There is no judgement here, though if we feel darkness or shadow within, this will be reflected in how we see the world - through this layer of darkness. So in turn if we see ourselves reflected in our Higher Self, we see us in angelic form, we see the world from our own light and our own magnificence.
The Higher Self is not seperate from us, it is us, and we have the choice to begin to live our life from this energy. The world looks more vibrant, more colourful, we are at peace within ourselves as we have this inner guidance showing us the way, we have trust and belief in self as we are the ones guiding us. We see that there is nothing to prove, nothing to be, other than you.
Imagine now the idea of no such thing as time or space expands to the concept of your higher self. At any moment you can be speaking the words of encouragement to a previous version of you to ‘keep going, you’ve got this’, to offer solace or wisdom. You in this moment are a past versions’ higher self. You right now, are a version of you, you had only dreamed of in the past. Your future self is the same for you now. Quantum Healing is all about this idea. That we can right now, heal old versions by being the light in the moment. That we can lean on what is to come as our light guiding us forward. Sit with this idea and see what comes up for you.
The natural progression of this concept is that compassion kicks into overdrive as we are able to see others through this loving compassion. We don’t have to understand why someone did or said something to us, we can have compassion for them. Each of us have our own struggles, battles sometimes raging within. Each of us are trying to be the best versions of ourselves by being kind or lending a hand. When compassion comes in… there is no need for defences, as competition falls away. Insecurities fall away, as we see through this love that each of us are doing our best in the way we know how. We are all changing, evolving or growing at our own pace.
The invitation for you is to imagine your Higher Self, visualise yourself in angelic form, your future self, spend time in meditation and invite the energy in of your higher self, what message do they have for you? What gift? What guidance? The more time we spend with our higher self, the more we integrate and become this version of ourselves.
Imagine a world where all are in communion, connection and conversation with their higher self… this is my kinda utopia.
A world where trust and belief in self is a given, where none are led to hurt another from their hurt, a place where harmony and love rise easily within all.
Sounds delicious, lets get it going x
Love from my higher self… you are endless, boundless, and so full of potential x Nicole
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