There are many points of experiences that lead us to where we stand today, and it is only with the beauty of hindsight that we see these points as the stars that have lit our path. Each moment or encounter adding to the tapestry of our lifetime, each contributing to how we see the world, or ourselves. We always have the choice how we view these encounters, whether we see them of moments of magic, of teachings or healings, as points that change the course of our life.
The longing for belonging has been a constant background hum of my life. Whether I have been conscious of it or not. Whether it was as a child, as a teen, within my marriage, with my family, my children. It has been with my romantic partners, my loving relationships, my friendships, my culture, my community. I truly craved or longed to belong. Well hidden behind the mask I wore as a fiercely independent woman, ferocious in my love for others I felt if I could love them enough, I would feel like I belonged.
I now see this.
This has been a slow burn of realisation over my healing journey, completely brought into the spotlight by a session I had yesterday with one of my dear students. As I do with my students, I was the receiver of his beautiful energy healing at the completion of our time together. I spoke the sentence, the longing to belong, channeled, as he was working on my sacral chakra. We asked to see the point of conception for this statement, and we were taken back to a lifetime long ago. Within the session, I was cool, calm, though within my heart I felt the lifetimes of pain I had carried with this one simple statement.
The longing to belong.
The paradox is, that throughout this lifetime it is both what I have craved and pushed away. I never wanted to ‘belong’ to someone, I was driven by my incessant need to stand on my own, a trauma response to a life of not having my most basic of emotional needs met. But at the same time, I can now freely admit that all I ever wanted was someone, just one person to declare that they’ve got me. That they were in my corner, that they see me, hear me, wanted to belong with me too. I never felt like I belonged in my family, I never felt like I belonged in my marriage, seeing what I had been chasing forever, to see it and speak it has left my heart feeling so raw, so tender, like the deepest secret I have held has the light shone upon it. And I know it is freeing, and I know this will become a great teaching, but for right now, I hold myself in the most sacred of ways and slowly pull the threads that allow me to say I belong.
I belong in this world, in this time.
I belong in the town I live in, I belong in the community I have.
I belong with my children.
I belong in the ocean.
I belong to myself.
I belong in love.
I belong.
And for that one person, to say, I belong with them in the most soft and safe ways.
Belong with, rather than belong to.
Not about ownership or control, but that I am loved, safely. This is not about ‘you belong to me’ this is we belong with each other, together.
To say that the work we do together with my clients and students does not affect or change me would be false. For the reason why we become healers is to heal ourselves. The reason why we choose to be of service is care for others, as we want and wish to be cared for.
Why we give how we give, is the love language in which ways we wish to receive. It seems so obvious now, and yet what we crave is often what we pour upon others.
The deepest parts of ourselves, the parts we keep secret, show us our true softness and what we are needing for our hearts. The deep within is where the magic lays.
As I close my eyes to see where to go next with this piece, all that is spoken to me is keep going baby, you’ve got this.
My team guided me to that session yesterday, my team guided my student to open this, they gave me this line and now here I am with their love showing me the way forward.
The way forward is the experience of divine love.
Divine love has been the theme for me with this full moon energy that passed two days ago, and while I had all intention of being in service, it was my own experience that was needing me.
Divine love I have spoken of in the past, divine love I have recorded a meditation that you can find here on substack. The longing to belong was tied to this divine love for me.
I close my eyes and see these encounters I have had over the past months flash by me, and as these stars they line up to show me that this moment of clarity is the healing or integration of these encounters.
So often what comes through or my writing is for you, for our community, for the collective. This was for me. This was for my healing. For me to share, to be vulnerable. And when we are truly vulnerable, and authentic we are allowing space for others to feel safe to do so too.
So, with the theme of being vulnerable and authentic, and a deep desire to expand the teachings around divine love, of course I was offered an opportunity within hours of this session. To work in collaboration, in person. I am all about the love and my divine purpose and why I am here in this life is to open hearts, to be love, to show love and to teach of love.
I know my greatest work, my greatest writing is yet to be seen, my greatest love yet to be felt, my greatest feeling of belonging is upon me. This is the fire within me that is that slow burn of energy, for fear has no place within me anymore. Only love. And the love I show myself is felt by others. For the love I have for myself shows others the way to love themselves more.
To create harmonious loving relationships with yourself and your loved ones is why we are here.
Love is the way. Love is the answer, love is the creator, love is the single point of consciousness.
Within the field of consciousness, all is divine love. Complete love, agape.
No matter the name you place upon your higher power, this is love.
To know love, to be a divine instrument of that love, brings me pleasure, brings me comfort, brings me purpose, brings me belonging.
Forever and everyday, love teaches me the way forward.
All is love.
My heart is seen and felt by me, and she now rests within this divine love and sense of belonging.
“what is divine partnership?
how do we recognise it?
how do we feel safe to cultivate these relationships into healthy, loving spaces of respite & freedom?
divine partnership is not only romantic, it is our loving relationships we create when our souls are connected for a moment, a period of our life or a lifetime. they are our loving relationships with our partners or chosen romantic counterpart, they are the love between family, siblings, lovers, mother or father & child, friendships, co-workers and business partnerships.
a divine partnership is two souls coming together to create something greater than the singular. we expand each other just by being together, we learn, we heal, we grow together. the divine partnership may only last a moment, though forever you are changed.
you are being asked to let go of the limits set on a divine partnership that it must only be romantic. No, no, it is anytime you are more you with this person, you feel expanded, you feel greater, being in this others energy. And they, the same. It is an even energy exchange between two souls.
You have the energy of the child when together, there is curiosity, play, fearlessness, explosions of new ideas, laughing till you feel you cannot laugh anymore. They ‘just get you’.”
With the day of love upon us, Valentine’s day, I, in conjunction with True Woo Cronulla are offering two sessions teaching divine love.
The first, is an online event, curated from my teachings around divine love.
For no matter whether you are in partnership or single, this online meditation, activation and energy healing session is to expand the divine love within. This will be a two hour event, on Wednesday feb 14 at 11am aest / Tues feb 13 at 7pm est / 4pm pst (usa). We will be opening the container of divine love for you to feel the love and expand your loving relationships. This is open to all, so you may have your loved one present with you, friends, family, all are welcome. Cost of this session will be $22 aud
The second, is a in-person live event for couples.
This event will be held at the True Woo studio in Cronulla, Sydney and will be a session of energy healing and clearing, an eye gazing meditation followed by the divine love practice. We will have mantras and affirmations for you to speak with each other and I will also be offering a light supper (all made with love). This will be a first of sessions I will be offering at True Woo, and this session will be open to couples, those in partnership, friends, or if you are wanting to lovingly close a relationship.
If you have questions if this is the right thing for you, please contact me direct here.
This will be a two hour event, held on wed feb 14 at 7pm aest
Cost of this session per couple will be $88 aud
Book your spot here - spots are strictly limited
Thank you to each of my clients and students, you know who you are and you are my love, inspiration and you are some of my most wonderful teachers, thank you to Esteban for our beautiful session yesterday and if you would like to connect with Esteban you can do so here - he is a fabulous facilitator and energy practitioner based in Florida, USA and I am so excited to support x
This year is set to be our most exciting yet, and I will have more in person events plus regular weekly teachings on offer - check my website for upcoming details and make sure to keep in contact through instagram or by email if you have questions or would like to reach out.
i love you divinely, nicole x
nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus
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