Oh this lil’ heart of mine, how she does shine.
I do love my heart so much, she is my favourite part of me. I see how she loves, I see how she makes others feel, I see all she has been through and still she shines this light so bright. She is my joy.
It is so remarkable when I think of it. That this piece of me continues to just be love, in her unique complexity, her capability of pure love and her resilience. My heart has changed, grown, and even with everything she has been through, she has returned back to that big beautiful child like heart. I am so proud of her.
Of course my heart is a part of me, maybe I feel more comfortable saying this in the way of my heart being seen as seperate. By pretending its not me, I can speak of her without ego, or without the effort it has come to be at this place now.
I am so proud of all I have done to get where I am.
The sacrifice, the challenges, my healing and shadow, all of it. For now is reward. Now is celebration, now is where the fun is. I deserve this feeling. I’ve worked hard for this feeling, and I don’t want to ever shy away from my heart or my love again.
It’s big, big, big love. Do you feel it?
I feel it all, I feel all of my heart and it no longer scares me. For the longest time I have been scared of my capacity for love. I feel every emotion deeply and what I saw as my downfall is now my biggest strength. What I was most scared of was showing how much love I have.
It’s been too much for my family, my children, my ex, it was always absurd to them how much I loved them. It made people uncomfortable to be the single point focus of my love. The magnitude of my love embarrassed them.
To receive this love romantically was me focusing this love like a cyclops laser directly into their heart. I realise only now the pressure of being loved by me. The unseen pressure of expectation that they felt, the disappointment I felt when I wasn’t loved back to the same level. How could they? I now realise why.
My love is for the world, not one person. My love is to be shared for all, not one love. In the purest moment of joy, I understand the pressure others must feel for me to love them and only them. This is too much love for any one human. And once I understood this, my life purpose was laid out. I am love for all, I knew this was my role, and now I understand how, I understand the reason, I understand what it is I am to do.
My love is for all.
It was unfair of me, unfair for them. I never understood before now. Is there one person strong enough to hold this love from me? I am hopeful though history has shown me why has happened in the past, maybe there is another who has felt the same. That their love has been too much for others. My heart is open. If I am here and feeling this way, then there must be my mirror. If I was scared of my love, then those that came would also be scared of my love.
If I no longer fear my love, then the next person coming in would not fear my love or theirs either.
When I close my eyes and feel into my heart, its just smiles and laughter, a newness to everything, a feeling of lightness and fearlessness. Its like the unwavering faith of a child that everything will be ok. Others may call me naive, or oblivious to the ‘real world’. No, I have seen the real world. I have seen and experienced how hurt people hurt one another. This is why I choose to be in my heart. I would rather a world I see through the lens of my heart than through the lens of my pain or hurt.
I choose to be me, I choose to be different, better; I choose on a daily basis, moment to moment to be love. I want to show you the possibilities. I want to be for you the light at the end of your tunnel. I want to be in my heart and live from this space so to guide you back to your heart.
If my whole ethos, my mantra, my purpose is simply to be love, I want others when they are in my energy to feel love, to feel loved. To feel safe. If I am to be the hero of my story than each time I must pick my self up, and lead the way. There is no time left to second guess my purpose. There is no time left to wallow in story. There are new stories unfolding, new excitement and opportunities, new love, a new hope.
I choose to be this way for me. I choose this for me, no-one else. The past has been defined by me choosing to be this way or that to suit others, to make others feel comfortable. This has not worked for me. Others may experience how this makes them feel, though the choice to be this way is for me.
None can hurt me or my heart anymore. She is my protector. My heart and my love is my gift to you, love is such a gift, so is pleasure, no matter the duration. Short, long, either way we are here to enjoy this life.
I want to show you this love, I want you to feel this love. I want to show you what it means to be a channel of this pure love from source.
Let’s see what changes for you. Let’s see what you feel being in this energy.
I want to take you through a meditation, so you can experience how I see my heart and my love, and so you can see yours too.
This is for you.
This is so you are able to see how expansive your heart, and your heart energy is. When we are in our heart energy, there is nothing to fear, when we are in this energy, all feelings of insecurity fall away, feelings of jealousy, anger, resentment naturally dissipate. We are completely surrounded by love, joy, peace, calm, trust. We feel how amazing we truly are. We show up more loving in our relationships, we show up more peaceful, more calm. We choose differently when we are in our heart. We rest easily in our heart. Our mind can take a break from trying to figure things out in each moment as trust steps in and allows that space for rest. So, my only question is, are you ready?
Open your heart to receive, my love.
Let us begin… I ask you to settle into your body now.
Breathe into your beautiful body, allow your worries, stress or thoughts of the day to simply settle like sand on the bottom of the ocean floor. See your thoughts and emotions settle, and melt away. Breathe in the new, exhale the old. Breathe in love, exhale all that has hurt you in the past. Breathe in more love, fill yourself up, hold. Hold that love for a moment longer, relax and exhale slower and slower, holding once more. Repeat again, breathing in love, longer, slower, hold. Exhale longer, slower, hold.
Love, love, love.
Trust, trust, trust the process.
Keep going, you feel the stillness, the silence, come over you, you feel the energy of love coming in to surround you, it may feel like a slow pulse of energy, a reverb, a current of love enveloping you here, suspending you, keep breathing in this love.
Calling in the energy of love,
calling in the energy of peace,
calling in the energy of tranquility.
Feel that love, maybe it has a colour to it, maybe a shape, maybe it feels like a soft pastel pink taffy swirling around you, maybe a golden beam of sunshine. Allow the energy of love to come to you, filling your space, filling your energy centres, allow your body to soften into this love, allow the feelings of safety to regulate your nervous system, allow the settling of all that once was. Feel how this feels in your body, feel the energy start to shift and change within and around you. Allow memories, feelings, visions to come easily to you of when you have experienced this energy before.
Allow them to pass through easily.
Take a moment here to just be in this energy of love.
Allow the gentleness of this energy to be the support you have been waiting for, allow this energy to hear your thoughts, your words you have been wanting to speak, allow this energy to carefully hold all of you in your completeness.
Take a big breath in, and gently release. Your heart is magic. Your heart is your great alchemist, your heart is your protector. With every breath now, see from your heartspace your heart energy expand. See it expand from your physical body, with every breath in it grows and grows, with every exhale your heart energy expands with love. You see this energy from your heart expand around you, growing bigger and bigger, more and more solid, more and more depth, more and more clarity.
See your heart energy as this giant bubble of love encasing you, surrounding you.
Your physical heart is merely the transmitter for this infinite energy. Your heart energy is greater than your physical being.
Feel your body relax completely as you recognise how much space you actually have being in your heart energy. See how gentle you feel being suspended in your own love. This energy is you, this is your heart. Your heart is huge. Your energy is huge. Your heart has been protecting you the whole time, there is no need for you to protect your heart, your heart is your protector.
You have felt for so long that you were needing to place these walls around your heart to keep you safe, and now you realise that you have prevented yourself from experiencing this big, big love which has been you the whole time.
There is no need to protect your heart when you realise how powerful you are.
The alchemy occurring for you now has been available to you the whole time. There is no room for fear anymore, there is only love. The fear you have felt in the past simply dissipates away. Past hurts, feelings of regret, simply melt away. Everything feels new, shiny, sparkly. Everything feels different, you want to move your body differently, speak differently, you want to be this way always. And you can. You are. This is changing everything for you.
Expand your heart energy even more.
Allow it to shine bright.
Allow your energy to provide you with so much space that you are free. Free to create, to play, to be all of you. To be your complete expansion. To be all of you freely. Past judgement towards love falls away easily. Past ideas of what love is and isn’t simply reduce to nothing. This moment is yours. This moment is you. This moment is all you baby. This feeling you have is yours. This knowing you have of your love is forever with you. Each moment you have access to this energy, because it’s you.
Breath all of you in, breath all of this love.
Feel how your physical heart fells. Close your eyes and feel how your body feels. Feel how your energy feels. Name it, put a colour to it, put a feeling to it. Allow this energy to flow through you, settle in and hold.
Our heart is our alchemist. Our heart is our protector. Our heart is our immense capacity for love. There is no need to shy your love away anymore. You are safe to speak your love. You are safe to express your love. Be your love, in every moment of every day. Simply, be love.
Take this moment to give thanks to your heart for showing you who you are.
Give thanks to your heart for showing you back to love.
Give thanks to your heart for protecting you.
None need pass through you to get to your heart, they must first pass through your heart, and the gates of your love to have access to you. Feel how that feels in your body. You can rest, knowing that your heart is your gatekeeper and not the other way around. Take rest knowing that your heart is what others experience first, without words, they feel your energy from your heart.
You are truly magical. You are destined for great big love, you are here to bring this to the world in your own unique way.
Love shall rule once more.
Love shall win the battle, love shall save us.
Love is here.
Your heart is your great protector, your voice, your love. Your heart is you.