what do we do when we feel we have lost our anchor?

what feelings rise when we feel we have been cast aside?

the past few weeks, past few months, heck the past year it has seemed like just as we are through one retrograde, full moon, eclipse, expansion or energy, the next is upon us.

with this new moon that was this past week, this was a time for you to pause, and just breathe. It’s the calm after a storm, it’s the clarity after confusion. many that have come to me or reached out been experiencing sickness, over-tiredness, feelings of exhaustion and the need to rest. this energy is here to support you in seeing the truth, as it is. seeing the truth with love. I have in my podcast on sacred sexuality talked about the energy of ‘it is what it is’. this is not a spiritual bypass or dismissal, this is about seeing with clarity and the chance of letting go. being shown the truth of a person in our lives or a situation or relationship allows you to make a decision whether you choose to continue.

the themes which have been popping up and reoccurring with my students and myself have been around ego, shadow, truth, trust.

with the veil being recognised as fear this pertains to fear we have of ourselves, of others, of being hurt, too much, not enough, not living up to our own expectations or those of others. guilt, shame, regret, all bring forth our shadow side. reacting in the moment, competing, shutting down responding from our hurt or past experiences rear our ego into gear.

we are also being shown the complete truth of ourselves. the truth shall set you free. the truth is our divine counterbalance for our love. speaking our love from truth, speaking our truth from love. the truth is not to be feared or shamed, it is what it is. so are we able to see ourselves truthfully?

seeing our complete self is a huge aspect of shadow work. looking at our shadow is self is the part we deem unlovable. each part of our life we feel that we made the wrong decision, we failed in some way, real or perceived, we let someone down or hurt another. if we can learn to face and then accept, forgive and love our shadow, we are more of our complete self. each of us have darkness within, just as each of us have our light. our darkness should not be hidden away, it gives us each our beautiful, exquisite, complexity of being. without the dark, there is no light.

my darkness is where my creative side is birthed. if I have fear around my own darkness, my creativity stalls. for there is gold to be found here. this is where my greatest writings and teachings come from. for here is where I am my most soft, my most tender, my most loving. it is easy to be love when you are surrounded by light, to still be love when you are surrounded by your darkness is where you are to find your depth of emotion and strength. your courage, your resilience. do not have fear of your darkness when it rises, become curious, become soft, slow down and ask why has it come forward? your shadow is your greatest teacher within. surround your darkness, your shadow with your light and love. love it, love every part of you, you are magnificent, and perfect. the truth of who you are will set you free. knowing your truth is freedom.

my shadow has risen this week and stopped me from creating. I stopped me because my shadow arose is probably more accurate. I was then reminded by my shadow of what has come forward from me when it has risen in the past. and the fear melted away, if I am to be all that I am to be, then the relationship with myself will rear up from time to time to tend to my own garden and be still with myself. the stillness allowed the light to come back in slowly to support the work and the greater feeling of yes, here I am, doing the things that bring me joy, doing the things that slow me down a little. taking my foot off the gas to tend to my own needs.

my anchor is mine. my anchor is my connection to my heart. my anchor is my connection to creator, my anchor is buried in within my practices. so it brings me back to the basics - sleep, hydration, movement, diet, meditation, journalling, sunrise, surfing. the things that bring me joy, that are within my control. it can be easy to push through, when what we are needing to do instead is to come back to the basics.

take a breath now, and ask your heart what it is most needing in this moment. ask your heart how are you feeling. ask your heart to show you a gentle way forward.

if we are wanting to see a more loving, kind, gentle world, are we first being gentle, kind & loving with ourselves?

some things are in our power to change, and some things will never be in our power to change, can we still have peace with this knowing? so, focus on the things in your life you can change, that you have control over, focus on the moment in front of you now, and ask your heart to guide you x

my heart is feeling tender, a little bit raw and also excited for what lays ahead. the unknown does not scare me anymore, the unknown is the great surprise of life and I’m here for it x